Six Things 2019 Has Taught Me

29 December 2019

Usually I find myself being relieved when we get to the end of the year. Ready for a clean slate, fresh start and some new goals. However, I've found 2019 to be a really positive year for me; and here's a few of the reasons why.


The power of the internet

It's only within this year I feel I've really found a community I fit in with online, and it's brought some amazing friendships with it. I feel so grateful to have met some of the most wonderful people this year and my goal for the next year is to turn these online friendships into real-life ones! Prior to this year, I found social media quite lonely to be honest. It's made me all the more grateful for the people I've connected with this year and can honestly call a lot of these incredible people close friends.


Learning when it's time to take a step back

I suppose one of the biggest moments for me this year was when I decided to withdraw from university and doing a course I really didn't enjoy. I won't lie, it wasn't an easy decision for me to make, and it would've been a whole lot easier for me to stick it out instead. However, deciding to change course has been one of my best decisions as I've never been happier.

Alongside that, I also made the decision more recently to leave the job I had been in for the last six months. Whist this may not seem like a big deal to most, this was the job I fell into soon after leaving uni, and I really felt part of a family. However, the job was very mentally and physically challenging and there came a point where I had to accept I couldn't cope with the pressures anymore. I didn't realise it at the time, but a lot of the anxiety I was facing was coming from the stress of my job. After leaving, I've realised what a weight has been lifted for me, and that it's okay to take a step back.

Stepping out of comfort zone

I don't think I ever announced my new job after leaving my old one, as I wanted to wait for it all to go through and not jinx it. But we're two months in now so I think we're safe! I managed to get a job as an editor for the university's blog and social media and I'm loving every minute of it. It sounds silly, but I never really thought I'd find a job I'd truly enjoy - I've always been someone who flips between passions and hobbies and change my mind constantly, but this is a job I really enjoy and could see myself doing in the future.

Anyways, the point of this was, I applied for this last minute (I mean the textbook definition of last minute - two minutes before the deadline of midnight) on a whim and wasn't expecting anything to come of it. I just thought well, what's the worst that can happen? They say no. So one interview and an email later, I got the job. Even now, it's still something I'm so proud of myself for doing. The reason I left my application until the last minute is because I was nervous of being rejected from something I really wanted, but I'm so glad I pressed send.

Putting pen to paper

When I was younger, writing in my diary was a big part of my life. Nowadays I've turned that passion for writing into being a penpal. I've found being able to put pen to paper and disconnect from technology has been really refreshing for me. Not only that, it's allowed me to get to know some absolutely lovely girls via snail mail who I always look forward to hearing from. I won't lie, I'm not the best at being a consistent writer via this blog or my other social media, but as soon as a new letter arrives on my doorstep I want to reply instantly!

Make your own opportunities

This year has been the first year where I feel I've sort of had a 'presence' online - by which I mean I've had a fair bit more interest from brands. Now I won't lie, most that come into my inbox tend to be spammy 'schemes' and weird emails where I'm never actually addressed by name (you know the ones) but I've also had some amazing opportunities come through too.

However, I'm not going to lie, most of the opportunities I've had this year have come from me approaching the brand myself as opposed to them coming to me. Before I actually joined all this blogger stuff I just assumed the brand would always reach out to you, but that's 100% not the case. Admittedly, I still have a lot of emails that have been left on read and ignored, but by making my own opportunities I've also worked with some incredible brands I would have never dreamed of this time last year.

Balancing the good and the bad

Whilst I feel this has been one of my better years recently, that doesn't mean it's been without it's ups and downs. At the start of the year when I had just left uni and had no job, it was a very low time for me. My depression came back stronger than ever and I was struggling to even leave the house. However, I think it's so important to remember it does get better, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. Coming to the end of this year I'm actually grateful for these lower times I've had as it's made me appreciate the good even more.

Don't let this years mistakes and low moments hold you back, make 2020 the year you want it to be.

Jess
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4 comments

  1. Happy new year! It sounds like 2019 was a year of growth for you, and you should be really proud of everything you've achieved. Stepping out of your comfort zone is so hard but you've really pushed forward to do the things that are going to make you happiest - which is what it's all about! Your new job sounds amazing and I bet you're so glad you went for it. I'm trying to be more like that in 2020 - you won't know unless you try :)
    Beth x Adventure & Anxiety

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    1. Thanks so much Beth! It's definitely something I have to force myself to do but it's given me some amazing opportunities :)

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  2. Happy New Year and congrats on your new job! Best wishes for 2020!

    Emily M x

    www.princessemilym.wordpress.com

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