Feeling flat

9 July 2019

I don't really know how to start this post, so I guess I'll just dive right in at the deep end. I've been in a bit of a 'funk' lately in terms of the content I produce. Not only this blog, but my Youtube and Instagram too. I seem to have lost my mojo and motivation to produce content - like I want to make content but have no ideas or inspiration if that makes sense? Basically I think I've hit a bit of a dry patch. I love the process of making and sharing my ideas, but I have no ideas to share right now which I'm finding super frustrating!

One of my favourite creators Stef Michalak refers to this as a 'change in frequency' which I can relate to. I guess I'd describe it as just feeling a bit flat I suppose. Right now I don't really know what direction to take with my content. I know it doesn't particularly matter and I can do a mix of everything if I really want to, but I feel I just haven't found the right 'spot' for my content which feels right. Trying to find a balance between all of my interests - like fashion, books, makeup, uni, mental health - is a tricky job. Even if I take the analytical aspect of views and popularity out of it (which is pretty difficult sadly) I find it hard to know what's good to share and what not to. Like do people want to know when my depression is eating me alive or that I overcame my 'fear' of wearing a maxi skirt, or am I just oversharing?? I guess I'm just at a turning point in both my life and content and I have no clue which way it's going to go.

If any of you are in the same kind of position, at least we can struggle together! (kidding ofc) But joking aside, I think over the past few weeks I've learnt kind of forcing yourself to continue to create and post content, even if you think it's the worst thing ever produced on this earth, is a good way to get out of the funk. I think in my case, the fact I do shift work so don't have a set routine to my week, and that I never really set aside a certain time for creativity, and would much rather be a potato and binge on a Netflix series is another issue. Particularly as my mental health can be 'fragile' (to put it kindly) sometimes, keeping busy is what stops me from falling into my usual pit of depression and sadness. I'm going to try and set aside more time for creative tasks, even if it's doodling in a sketchbook, as I know it massively helps my mental health I just have to give myself a bit of a kick up the bum to actually do it.

So I guess long story short, I'm feeling a bit meh about my content at the moment, and maybe you guys do too, but I'm sticking it out. I've had enough of these flatter 'frequencies' over the years that I know it soon will pass.

Sending hugs,
Jess x

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